I wanted to have these wild, intense, raw sex experiences and I understood that this probably meant getting HIV, and that when that happened I would be responsible about it and take care of myself medically.Īt the time, the demand that my sex drive was putting on me was something that was very hard to ignore, and I was in my 20s and under the impression that I was invincible. I fully expected it to happen and was not shocked when it did. What about on a personal level? How has HIV affected you?įinding out I was positive was not a momentous turning point in my life.